Even in pain and trials, I know I am blessed


I am blessed because God is God and remains on the throne regardless of what my circumstances are or how I might feel about them from time to time.

I am in pain. I am "confined". I am limited by and to many things. But I am not crushed by them nor do they cause me to despair. Are there times I whine a bit here and there or wish for the pain and limitations to dissipate? Yes. But they do not cause me to question my heavenly Father for allowing such things in my life. Why? Because I already know the answer: we live in a fallen and broken world, and while we're here, we must live in our fallen, broken and mortal bodies.

This is my latest Get Well gift "basket". I put "basket"
 in quotes because the basket was so large, it was on
wheels and as you can see, some of this gifts couldn't
even fit in the basket! My sweet and precious friend
Leanne Holiman gave these to me yesterday. ♥
I never ask, "Why me, Lord?" because why shouldn't it be me? Am I better than others that painful trials should come to them and not me? Absolutely not.

God is sovereign. God is good. God loves me. That means regardless of my circumstances, all should always be well with my soul because Jesus Christ is its Master and nothing can change that (John 10:27-29). Now, does this mean I slap on a silly smile on my face and pretend I'm not in pain or from time to time, feel frustration from these eight years of physical trials and chronic illnesses? No. What it means is, in spite of feeling frustrated and annoyed at times, my spirit is always lifted higher, to the Lord my God, to my Christ who knows physical pain far greater than I or any human being can or ever will. And because I know this truth, I know my Lord Jesus knows how to care for me and comfort me as I need and not as I want or think I need.


"For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need."
~Hebrews 4:15-16

In my time of need, when I'm tempted to sin against my Lord by questioning Him and moaning, groaning and complaining about my circumstances, I remember my Lord's words, that I can draw near with confidence and ask God for help every time I am tempted not to trust my Savior.

Here I am using the wonderful robe and foot jet
massage spa from my sweet friend
Leanne Holiman.
I'm sharing all this with you today, because though I'm still in much pain and I have a long road of recovery ahead of me, I'm grateful and know I am blessed. Because God loves us so intimately and cares for us so specifically and remembers our weaknesses (Ps 103:13-14), He blesses us with all that we could never imagine to ask for and much more than we could ever deserve.

Since my hospital admit and surgery, God has poured out His love to me through my loving and thoughtful husband and sons; my incredibly kind, gracious and generous Daddy and Mommy; and through my amazingly kind and loving friends both in "real" life and online. I've received countless cards full of love, prayers and compassion for me. I've received gifts, flowers, candy, gift certificates, meals, and friends who are willing to pick me up and take me to lunch or breakfast. I've received two large and generous gift baskets, one from my husband's office and another from a sweet and precious friend.

When we go through difficult and painful trials in our lives, God always makes even the painful more pleasant through the love of those in the body of Christ and many others He chooses to use to bless, encourage and care for His children.

I am blessed beyond measure and grateful to the uttermost for my Savior and His love and provisions for me during my short sojourn here in this fallen and broken world; in my broken and temporal body. And I look forward to the day that my body will be redeemed and I will have my eternal, unbroken and perfect body when I see I see my Savior face to face in Heaven!


      "When I look at Your heavens, the work of Your fingers,
the moon and the stars, which You have set in place,
what is man that You are mindful of him,
and the son of man that You care for him?
Yet You have made him a little lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and honor.
You have given him dominion over the works of Your hands;
You have put all things under his feet,
all sheep and oxen,
and also the beasts of the field,
the birds of the heavens, and the fish of the sea,
whatever passes along the paths of the seas.
O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is Your name in all the earth!
~Psalm 8:3-9

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